Let Life Surprise You

Say it my habit or anything, on year-end I can’t help penning down my feelings. Yeah sometimes expressing those feelings in words is a tough task, especially now, when I am not having anymore the habit to express much.  I am not sure enough if my words would express them to the best or not.

2016 has been a year for me, which was unbelievably surprising….

A person gets surprised when he or she isn’t expecting something to happen. In my case, I knew everything that was supposed to happen. Life did give me chance to plan every situation. But still when your own plans surprises you in a much unexpected manner, you tend to realize how strange life can be.

I presumed I was prepared. My assumptions were so wrong.

My own planned life changed me and I wasn’t me anymore. And when I lost myself, I turned up to become a new me. There was no time to care if the world would like the new girl in me. I just changed. And I knew my life affected me in its strange way. Still I tend to admire that strangely.

The year surely made me realize both the extremely worst and amazingly beautiful side of relationships. They might complicate me, but still they complete me.

“I admit I am weak for you, but you are my strength” I said to myself as we walked on a path that was different for both of us. We both walked together but separately.

I sighed. I can’t stop our life from playing its role. I won’t stop you ever to live your life. But I’ll love you for those moments when you played your best role in my life. And I will love you a lot for those moments, hoping my love lasts forever in your life.

I saw you stood there, waiting for me. I knew I could say so much, I could hug you tight to not let you go. But I noticed my reflection in your eyes. I couldn’t move or utter anything. I kept looking at you.

My love, my lips when smiled with you, it was the best ever. Even as we bid byes, your eyes said they adored my smile.

Life, yes you made me realize, it too can surprise me. Bad or good, surprises are always affecting.

“I hate you. I regret meeting you.” Your temporarily last words hit me hard.

If I happen to shed tears for you, they were the most.

I never wanted us to end, I never wanted this journey of planned surprises to end, and I never wanted this year to come to an end. But I can’t, and I won’t stop anyone or anything. I would await new surprises, because I am falling in love with your way to surprise me. Life!

 

Love is YOU

You walked into my life. I wished it be love between us.

You were standing closer to me. I sensed what love could be.

You filled my heart with desires. I knew I was being in love with you.

Your hand gripped to hold on me. I accepted being loved by you.

You popped the bubble around me. I realized I was dreaming of love.

You emptied my heart. I hoped I’d love you for that moment.

 

You again came to protect me. I loved those reasons in your eyes.

You couldn’t stop from expressing. I felt bliss in your love.

You pulled harder to embrace me. I had let you re-fill me with love.

Your love was making me mad. I desired to fall in love again over again.

You were holding my hand. I adored how your love taught me to blush.

You meant love to me.  I was becoming you, my love.

 

Your life played a roll over love. I forced my lips to curve into smile.

You told you are breaking us. I didn’t ask nor needed any justification.

I said what we did was not just love. You gazed into my eyes once.

You had hidden your tears. I wanted you to know I believed.

You couldn’t tell you still loved me. I wanted you to know, I knew that.

You went bringing distance in us. I had to leave with whatever we shared.

 

You got drenched in rain. I thought of us watching the rain.

You cried apology on sky. I was touched by gust of wind.

You weren’t there or near anymore. I knew love was forever, in our heart.

Your love happened for many reasons. I couldn’t let it end just for any reason.

You had decided to live without love. I searched you to live our love.

 

You happen to bump into me.“It’s just not love” I remembered my words.

Because whatever you and I did, was beyond love!

 

For you meant love to me.  I became you, my love.

 

 

 

 

The Date!

Some days occur in our life, only to bring a change. A big one!

It had to happen; we said we were prepared. Just when the reality struck us, we knew those said words felt mere words. It was easier when put in words but hard to accept while making it happen….

Oh, yeah we finally found your man, my lovely sister. My heart overflowed with emotions when I was standing next to my parents, watching them shed tears of happiness. The boy’s parents were congratulating them over phone. I quickly came to hug you tight, not letting you go, at least for the moment.

I knew I had explained myself hundredth times that I had to let you go to live your own life. I readily accepted the fact too. But while performing every task, in every action, at every steps, for every work; I realised my life would be empty without you. Yet I was happiest for I had already got more than my share from you. We have together lived so many years, sharing wonderful moments and also you had nurtured me helping me grow up responsible. I now can live my complete life strongly, memorizing us forever.

Instantly, I recognized, it was time for change.

I stepped back allowing the new family of yours, to stand next to you. I didn’t walk away but stood at front, glancing in your eyes. I wanted to watch you happily believe the change, while understanding I am still there for you, like always. I had to admit, you looked pretty with that glorious shine on your face, the slight glint in your eyes and the perfect beautiful smile.

I heard the loud voices, breaking my gaze, and I saw everyone exchange hugs happily. Your Roka ceremony date was decided. I embraced myself in arms of Papa, while he gently placed his hand on my head. It caressed me and I surpassed my supposed weak moment with a smile strongly.

Your Soon-to-be Partner, gestured me to join along, pointing towards you. I noticed you both together as I smiled. I even had to admit, in him, I gladly found the lovable and sweet Jiju I was searching. I grasped in the fact, on a sweet note that he valued you and our bonding too. I thanked to all those stars, blessings, love; each one has poured into my life. They have made my life astonishingly perfect.

14th February, The date was perfect for beginning of new start of a new life of yours. I delightfully engaged myself in preparations.

I acknowledged it was time for making that change happen. I wanted to live the change and make it splendidly magnificent for us.

And whilst living the change, I knew I even wanted to make it inseparable. I could not resist sharing.

Today, I typed it. Tomorrow or in future, I know you’ll sure read it with that lovely smile of yours.