Let Life Surprise You

Say it my habit or anything, on year-end I can’t help penning down my feelings. Yeah sometimes expressing those feelings in words is a tough task, especially now, when I am not having anymore the habit to express much.  I am not sure enough if my words would express them to the best or not.

2016 has been a year for me, which was unbelievably surprising….

A person gets surprised when he or she isn’t expecting something to happen. In my case, I knew everything that was supposed to happen. Life did give me chance to plan every situation. But still when your own plans surprises you in a much unexpected manner, you tend to realize how strange life can be.

I presumed I was prepared. My assumptions were so wrong.

My own planned life changed me and I wasn’t me anymore. And when I lost myself, I turned up to become a new me. There was no time to care if the world would like the new girl in me. I just changed. And I knew my life affected me in its strange way. Still I tend to admire that strangely.

The year surely made me realize both the extremely worst and amazingly beautiful side of relationships. They might complicate me, but still they complete me.

“I admit I am weak for you, but you are my strength” I said to myself as we walked on a path that was different for both of us. We both walked together but separately.

I sighed. I can’t stop our life from playing its role. I won’t stop you ever to live your life. But I’ll love you for those moments when you played your best role in my life. And I will love you a lot for those moments, hoping my love lasts forever in your life.

I saw you stood there, waiting for me. I knew I could say so much, I could hug you tight to not let you go. But I noticed my reflection in your eyes. I couldn’t move or utter anything. I kept looking at you.

My love, my lips when smiled with you, it was the best ever. Even as we bid byes, your eyes said they adored my smile.

Life, yes you made me realize, it too can surprise me. Bad or good, surprises are always affecting.

“I hate you. I regret meeting you.” Your temporarily last words hit me hard.

If I happen to shed tears for you, they were the most.

I never wanted us to end, I never wanted this journey of planned surprises to end, and I never wanted this year to come to an end. But I can’t, and I won’t stop anyone or anything. I would await new surprises, because I am falling in love with your way to surprise me. Life!

 

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Happiness-When we met! (part2)

If someone knows you love surprises, and do something to surprise you is sweet.

But if someone never knew that, someone whom you would never expect, yet he or she gives you simple sweet little ones that are most delightful.

Something same I happen to feel, when you surprises me.

Today 30th December, 2013 1:58 pm

I was lazily snuggled into my blanket and listening music on my earphones, while my hands were busy typing on laptop my blog post. (There was something due, but this one took its place, so wait for that one also as would be shared sooner).

My current track running on mobile stopped as a call came up, I saw the caller’s photo showing on my screen. I wasn’t anticipating it at all and then it clicked me, I should receive. I whacked my head as I pressed the green button.

“Where are you?” I heard the familiar voice, and the first question.

I was surprised when the question came up straight, rather than certain ‘hi!’.

“At my home” I stated very obvious.

“Where is your home?” came up the second question. Making me more confuse.

I answered perplexed the followed up questions and by every question I found myself more puzzled.

As I ended up the call, I knew I had less time to decide. I wanted to do what was said. But the question was how. An idea popped in my head as quick as urgent the situation was and I messaged “give me 15 min”.

The first thing I did was search my wardrobe, not for my dress but for the thing I had to hand over, I was eager to give from long. Oh yes, I was getting to see him again. I cherished with the thought.

A quick comb, having a bath was not an option in such short duration, speedily I changed my dreadful looking night dress into a better decent jeans and top with a jacket over it. Well, looks doesn’t matter much, I rushed to door and skipped out of my house making any random excuse.

I realised its chilly and automatically my hand moved to zip my jacket.

“This guy would always remain to be unpredictable” I murmured as I walked, or better say ran to chosen place.

I reached and saw no one there, I knew he wouldn’t be joking. I called him and it was instantly attended.

No! No! That’s not fair! I felt like screaming in anxiety.

I won’t cross a road, I complained over phone. I wasn’t in the mood to come across in front of cars, knowing my body was freezing.

“He would never change” the thought almost came out of my mouth as I turned to watch him behind me. A smile appeared on my lips. I ended the call and stepped forward to reach him.

I never knew 3 min meeting, could be this much surprising.

I handed over him those belongings of him and with a casual hi –bye we left.

It was unexpected but happening, I felt pleasant.

P.S. part 1 would be soon updated. 😛

My gestures, they speak!

The day is special for me, the reason is something I don’t wish to share as I don’t want to value it in just few words, but this moment made me think of giving a thought to explain myself a bit more to my readers. So, I am here with this another post of mine, which is simply about me and my beliefs.

You’ve heard me many times stating that “When I say, I mean it.” I truly do but apart from my words, even my gestures speak my thoughts. They are never meaningless and this is because for I believe words are not just enough to express yourself to the best and I always desire to give my best, at least when it’s about relationships.

Someone once said me, actually not just once but THRICE to be precise, that I am not very expressive. And I should LEARN to do it more. I hope I don’t need to point out about whom I talking, the one can easily make it, it’s about you.

So, for you there is something I like to say…

I take those words of yours. But to speak frankly you are no one to comment on and suggest me something like this just because you know me the way you had understood me, not the way you were suppose to.  It’s your mistake to claim that you know me being my friend, although this statement of yours certainly proves it wrong. It isn’t really tough to know me, only if you allowed yourself. Every time you said that, it pricked me hard. If something I had always treasured in my life, that’s my relations and for letting them know how much I’ve loved, I express to any extent. I needn’t need someone else asking me to do that.

And still if you don’t take my words then I wish to share something, hope it changes your point of view. As it really matters to me that you know me, the way any of my friends is suppose to.

  • People say I love giving surprises to others and that’s true, I had always been eager to plan surprises at any occasion. In fact I even love getting surprises 😉 Reason I’ve said it before; they speak more than few words, allowing the person to understand how special he/she mean to us. When we receive them, there is different spark of happiness to be seen in their eyes, which ultimately gives us a pure satisfaction of seeing them feel delighted.
  • I am known as a big chatterbox. No doubt in it I am, as I talk a lot with my loved ones. If you’d notice I said with my ‘loved ones’. I don’t do that with everyone or anyone as I consider spending my precious time sharing my thoughts only with someone who values in my life. Why would I do with strangers until I don’t know them or wish to know them? Now, this was another fact revealing I express myself. It’s not that I don’t like being silent. I am no different, even I wish to re-collect my energy yet I don’t let my mouth take rest for it needs to give time to someone who deserves it.
  • Usually when we meet someone, we shook hands pleasantly, but I don’t really do with anyone. I simply prefer to be verbal. For me it means to trust that person whose hands I am holding, It expresses that I allow that person to enter my life and stay forever, I expect the give and take of love n care, The grip shows that I won’t let that person walk out of my life ever for I need his/her presence. It speaks my commitment.
  • How often do you call someone and how soon do you end those calls? My calls to my dear ones usually extend not less than 20mins even when I am busy in work. There’s a reason behind it. I am sure they’ve not noticed I never like to cut the call from my end. So, it exceeds until they themselves do that or some urgency. My ears always wish to hear that voice, like forever. I couldn’t force them to stay stick to my side but I can’t myself ask them to leave. Thereby, I live those moments until they get busy into their own life.
  •  Unlike other girls, I am not so much into hugging at every excitement. I do it very rare to my special people. Hug is not just a touch, when it comes to my definition. It means for me to allow that person to touch your soul. It makes one feel weaker in those arms, so that they can act stronger, protecting your from your surroundings. It means letting someone be too close to you, to hear his/her breathe, for their survival is your lifeline.

Just like these little descriptions of my gestures and their speech of definitions to me there are many more which gives a meaning to my way of expressing. I don’t say you too follow what I believe. But I am sure you would agree with it, these gestures give a unique happiness. Isn’t it?

Yeah, I agree in our life we sometimes need to be professional also, that’s where I don’t use my personal tactics. So, if you don’t mean to me anything, I prefer doing any such act for formality out of respect. And for that very moment, I have no feelings of mine attached with it. However, I bet it’s tough to decide easily if it’s my respect with I’m speaking to you or my true emotions for you. That’s somewhere I admire being secretive. The person who could really read the truth behind those secrets is surely the one to understand me the best.

Regards,

Isha ❤