Missing him

As her hands pressed harder against the glass of large window, she kept watching the empty roads on a Sunday morning. It was 4:00 am and her sleep driven eyes weren’t blinking a bit. She couldn’t sleep the complete night. His thoughts didn’t let her. He was missing since the whole day.

She turned supporting her back on the adjacent wall, and her eyes fell on those neatly kept white sheets and pillows on bed. Her tired muscles urged for rest.

She walked slowly to reach there. Mid way her mind dejected to relax and she picked her phone kept on table beside the bed. Her fingers quickly dialed his number again.

His number was unreachable throughout night, every time she tried calling him. But this time it did ring a bell.

Her heart beat increased with every ring. The call ended unanswered, leaving her in dismay.

Before her mind, it was her heart to react. Her tears rolled down on her pale cheeks and she went down on her knees. She curled up her body sitting next to her bed on floor.

In her silent room, she could only hear her sobs. They were loud enough for her fearful state of mind.

Her hands reached her bed sheets and she pulled them closer to her skin, trying to hide her face into them. Her sobs were still loud to be heard.

Before her heart, it was her mind to take up the decision. She dozed off.

“Naina” His voice whispered her name possessively. Her lips reflexively curved to smile a bit.

Her eyes shifted to gaze into his and his eyes stared her beautiful smile.

Breaking their stance, he pulled her up to stand still.

“What?” she asked while faking her anger.

“Good morning!” He replied as he took her into his arms. She smiled a little more. He kept adorning her smile yet again.

They lay down on bed together. They pulled each other closer.

Her anger disappeared. His smile appeared.

Her body leaned more into him and she could hear him inhale softly.

She rubbed her nose on his neck as he hugged her tighter. His fingers moved into her hairs.

Her lips kissed his throat and she could hear him exhale deep.

She repeated her moves and his breathing turned harder. She blushed a bit.

She trailed down to his chest and felt his hand trace up on the sides of her stomach. She blushed more.

She closed her eyes and kissed him. He smirked and tickled her. They both laughed.

“Where were you?” She questioned trying to resist his laugh.

He remained quiet. She opened her eyes and looked up.

Her eyes scanned the silent wall, the empty bed and lonely room.

“Were you missing me?” she recalled his counter question. “Why would I miss you?” And she remembered her respond.

She rubbed her hand against the smooth silk sheets of bed.

“I don’t miss you. I miss your touch. “She had added teasingly. He had laughed more.

Her eyes shed tears and she hugged herself more. She heard herself crying a lot more.

“Still missing my touch!?” she heard a clear voice.

She turned swiftly to the direction of voice. It was his voice. He stood there.

Her eyes knew it was him. Her heart took few seconds to believe.

She still cried as he came closer and pulled her into hug, a tight one.

“I missed you!” she exclaimed.

He rubbed his hand on her back and her sobs trying to settle down in his warmth.

Her phone buzzed and mechanically she picked to keep it aside.

Her arms hugged her pillow tightly. “I missed you so much.” She said louder.

The screen displayed his number and the call was missed before she could read his name.

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Love is YOU

You walked into my life. I wished it be love between us.

You were standing closer to me. I sensed what love could be.

You filled my heart with desires. I knew I was being in love with you.

Your hand gripped to hold on me. I accepted being loved by you.

You popped the bubble around me. I realized I was dreaming of love.

You emptied my heart. I hoped I’d love you for that moment.

 

You again came to protect me. I loved those reasons in your eyes.

You couldn’t stop from expressing. I felt bliss in your love.

You pulled harder to embrace me. I had let you re-fill me with love.

Your love was making me mad. I desired to fall in love again over again.

You were holding my hand. I adored how your love taught me to blush.

You meant love to me.  I was becoming you, my love.

 

Your life played a roll over love. I forced my lips to curve into smile.

You told you are breaking us. I didn’t ask nor needed any justification.

I said what we did was not just love. You gazed into my eyes once.

You had hidden your tears. I wanted you to know I believed.

You couldn’t tell you still loved me. I wanted you to know, I knew that.

You went bringing distance in us. I had to leave with whatever we shared.

 

You got drenched in rain. I thought of us watching the rain.

You cried apology on sky. I was touched by gust of wind.

You weren’t there or near anymore. I knew love was forever, in our heart.

Your love happened for many reasons. I couldn’t let it end just for any reason.

You had decided to live without love. I searched you to live our love.

 

You happen to bump into me.“It’s just not love” I remembered my words.

Because whatever you and I did, was beyond love!

 

For you meant love to me.  I became you, my love.

 

 

 

 

In love- 2015!!

“What’s been so special about my 2015” They had asked and every time I just smiled. You’ll know, I had replied.

I know I kept telling it had been special throughout, without sharing the details. So, this one is for each one of you, who had been eagerly waiting to know the reason.

But before I narrate about how I being in love with 2015 I simply want to know does anyone of us know reasons for why we fall in love with our special someone? 

If asked, we all will admit we can’t exactly put in words the answer.

The year started with a surprise package, which when I opened it shined admirably and brightened up my life. As I went on exploring the package, it not only spread love in my life, the love I have found long back, but it also have completed me by its presence.

Love had made its way to my heart long back, when I started adorning myself. But like it’s said, when love start loving you in return, your life seems beautiful more than your dreams.

That love, it did enter my life when my life had taken a sudden strange turn bringing a major change in me. But lately then it came up to me, gift wrapped, making me realize it want to be mine but not for being my support. It wanted to hug me becoming mine forever.

What was my reaction? As it stood in front of me with open arms, I did reciprocate.

Umm, I… I ran to hug and to be hugged, never to be alone. Yeah, I admit, I too could not resist its charm.

People find love in mere humans, this love of mine was my Strength!

It’s amazing; I have never been so strong. If I look back into my past, I find it weird that it ever belonged to me, LOL.

I remember a girl who was fearful. The girl used to sulk under the sheets, covering her mouth to not let her cries be loud. Her heart raced fast and her mind used to think about disappearing from facing any situation or anyone. She used to close her doors, shut her eyes tight, etc. She did everything to avoid being a part of crowd.

She never realized in her fear to avoid negativity, she even blocked the entry of positivism. That girl is me, crazily unbelievable.

When you are in love, you make every effort, though nervous. You just do it, for the sake of your love.

By passing time, as I found my lovable adorable strong factor, the fear passed by too. I started with tiptoeing and slowly increasing my pace to accept things. I too followed the love and accepted the fact, we should welcome whosoever (or whatsoever) arrive. Still, you always have an option to lock the entrance and show exit to unwanted ones.

Today bring the worst or best out of me, my heart is calm. I am fearless because since, I fell in love with my Mr. Strength; my lips forgot the taste of salty drops. It often smiles.

Now if I have to jot down, some best moments of this year… There were no extra ordinary as such. I know most of the time; I had been quiet, occupied and tired. Not that, I was busy living my life and avoiding others. I was just engrossed in my work, which was important and needed.

Yet I would say the times I managed to spend with my dear ones, have been close to my heart.

May it be a plain walk, a casual talk, a simple dine or sitting silently together; Nevertheless, It has been a moment, a soothing one.

When love is genuine and true, you trust it completely.

Those who had created problems for me by their not so logical behavior, I want to say to them, you can try destroying me, harm me and steal my smile but certainly you can’t break the trust, I have the strength in me- my love!

And to all those who have never been in love or never felt it, you should fall in love. It might take you deep inside the danger, but it won’t harm. It will only heal you.

In case, if it let you fall and doesn’t give a hand of help it certainly wasn’t your love. Stop fooling yourself considering it love. However, don’t close the door. Instead wait beside the open door. And when your search ends, put a tag- ‘Do not disturb’ coz you’ve found the perfect guest to be served at your home. 😉 


Wishing a sweet bid bye to my lovely year. You’ll always remain special dear 2015!

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