In love- 2015!!

“What’s been so special about my 2015” They had asked and every time I just smiled. You’ll know, I had replied.

I know I kept telling it had been special throughout, without sharing the details. So, this one is for each one of you, who had been eagerly waiting to know the reason.

But before I narrate about how I being in love with 2015 I simply want to know does anyone of us know reasons for why we fall in love with our special someone? 

If asked, we all will admit we can’t exactly put in words the answer.

The year started with a surprise package, which when I opened it shined admirably and brightened up my life. As I went on exploring the package, it not only spread love in my life, the love I have found long back, but it also have completed me by its presence.

Love had made its way to my heart long back, when I started adorning myself. But like it’s said, when love start loving you in return, your life seems beautiful more than your dreams.

That love, it did enter my life when my life had taken a sudden strange turn bringing a major change in me. But lately then it came up to me, gift wrapped, making me realize it want to be mine but not for being my support. It wanted to hug me becoming mine forever.

What was my reaction? As it stood in front of me with open arms, I did reciprocate.

Umm, I… I ran to hug and to be hugged, never to be alone. Yeah, I admit, I too could not resist its charm.

People find love in mere humans, this love of mine was my Strength!

It’s amazing; I have never been so strong. If I look back into my past, I find it weird that it ever belonged to me, LOL.

I remember a girl who was fearful. The girl used to sulk under the sheets, covering her mouth to not let her cries be loud. Her heart raced fast and her mind used to think about disappearing from facing any situation or anyone. She used to close her doors, shut her eyes tight, etc. She did everything to avoid being a part of crowd.

She never realized in her fear to avoid negativity, she even blocked the entry of positivism. That girl is me, crazily unbelievable.

When you are in love, you make every effort, though nervous. You just do it, for the sake of your love.

By passing time, as I found my lovable adorable strong factor, the fear passed by too. I started with tiptoeing and slowly increasing my pace to accept things. I too followed the love and accepted the fact, we should welcome whosoever (or whatsoever) arrive. Still, you always have an option to lock the entrance and show exit to unwanted ones.

Today bring the worst or best out of me, my heart is calm. I am fearless because since, I fell in love with my Mr. Strength; my lips forgot the taste of salty drops. It often smiles.

Now if I have to jot down, some best moments of this year… There were no extra ordinary as such. I know most of the time; I had been quiet, occupied and tired. Not that, I was busy living my life and avoiding others. I was just engrossed in my work, which was important and needed.

Yet I would say the times I managed to spend with my dear ones, have been close to my heart.

May it be a plain walk, a casual talk, a simple dine or sitting silently together; Nevertheless, It has been a moment, a soothing one.

When love is genuine and true, you trust it completely.

Those who had created problems for me by their not so logical behavior, I want to say to them, you can try destroying me, harm me and steal my smile but certainly you can’t break the trust, I have the strength in me- my love!

And to all those who have never been in love or never felt it, you should fall in love. It might take you deep inside the danger, but it won’t harm. It will only heal you.

In case, if it let you fall and doesn’t give a hand of help it certainly wasn’t your love. Stop fooling yourself considering it love. However, don’t close the door. Instead wait beside the open door. And when your search ends, put a tag- ‘Do not disturb’ coz you’ve found the perfect guest to be served at your home. 😉 


Wishing a sweet bid bye to my lovely year. You’ll always remain special dear 2015!

Your Love.  Continue reading

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Birthday 2015

I missed this place so much past few days. Ofcourse the reason was; I had so much going around but no time to express. But isn’t life worth it when you are busy and still know you are missed, As you have someone waiting to share that life with.

Well, leaving all those things aside I want to tell about my 2015 Birthday.

It’s the day every birthday girl/boy waits for longingly. It’s totally your day and even your loved ones treat you special. But my loved ones, they do not treat me special, instead make me feel special. They say the day is special for a special person is born. I adore them a lot.

I really want to dedicate this year Birthday post of mine to those lovely special people in my life, who make me feel special.

I am an ordinary girl. Simple and little things are what I adore, though I end up making things complicated for others. In spite of creating fussy things, I am glad and thankful, for I have got best people in life. They simply don’t complain.

I know I am too talkative and I am way too much annoying. I even act crazy and moody many times. I am stubborn and stay confused most of the times. I am not there as supportive as you all have been. Yet you pour on me so much love.

With growing years, I know I have done innumerable mistakes and some big faults too. My silly habits haven’t changed. You scold me, but even forgive me.

The care you have given me all through has indeed helped me become what I am today. It wasn’t easy for me to act strong without your support.

The girl, who used to wish to hide thinking of talking to any stranger, has made many strangers her buddies today. Before interacting to teachers or seniors used to be a nightmare and now I laughingly converse with them. Road crossing, travelling in buses was a big no; but I admire when I now help others on roads. Many such big and small aspects in me have turned correct.

There are times, when I am alone and I am independently tackling things, the courage to handle it was not possible without the presence of yours in my life.

I know I still have so much to improve but the confidence, the maturity to learn & grow up to become better person I have gained, it was impossible if it was just me alone on my path. Thanks for understanding me, making me understand people and giving me the support I needed in the right way, which does suits me. Most of all for never leaving me or letting me leave us.

All those tears you have wiped, that helpful guidance, those tight hugs, those lovely kisses and big smiles; Everything you gave me, all together have been a wonderful memory. These memories are beyond any expensive gift. I may forget things I did, but I can’t forget what you did to me. For you changed my life to the extent I started loving it exclusively. And I know I am in love with you, and the life you gave me.

Generally the word “you” talks about a single individual. But here certainly I am referring to all of you-  My lovingly parents,  my supportive teachers, my adorable friends, my mentor, my awesome few close and best pals, my things that hold a sweet place in my life, my cute teddies, my love and undoubtedly my amazing sister.

This year on my birthday I decided to do nothing grand but make a wish and in that wish, I wished to spread that love. The love, in which you made me fall in love with.

BTW today it’s another special day, a birthday of one my sweet friend. I want to share, I call him prince charming and hopefully he adores the same. Dear, I hope you loved your gift, as the government made it a national holiday on your birthday. Teehee!

It’s a day to feel safe around, for it’s the day when we Indians got our Independence. So safely and happily enjoy your Independence. Celebrate being born and brought up to be an independent person. 🙂

 

2015- start of an important phase!

Amidst of all the chaos, I sat on my chair, while my eyes getting hypnotized by the bright light emerging from computer placed in front of me. My hands seem to be tired from typing and shoulders aching from no movement position since an hour.

Oh, that feeling of having a break. But then there was this need of staying busy and engage myself. I knew if I sat idle, I would end up think upon things, I would be then frustrated and not able to focus.

My mind thought of continuing the work. It paused for I felt tired. I never get bore of my work, but here I was complaining of being tired of doing my work.

There was a reason behind that complaint, I made. I enjoy work, until it gives utter satisfaction. I love doing work when it’s considered worth it.  Not when one knows the work you are doing is completely useless and you are forced to do it the way, it shouldn’t have been.

I realized these factors were fitting in my current situation. I wanted to do it otherwise. I wanted to do something productive. I felt irritated out of sudden. My hands stretched to pick up the glass of water kept at a distance. It was empty. Just as similar as my body felt to be at this moment, empty and stuck at some point, some place.

Maybe I should try to divert or change my mind, I thought. Change! The word struck me. It has affected a lot in my life.  Lots of changes had been brought, few had occurred naturally, and both of them had gradually resulted into forcing me to change. Do I still require a change? I felt confused.

I knew, I can simply call upon some friends and feel better. But wouldn’t that be a way to escape from reality. The real fact is I am not satisfied from my current situation. I made it look satisfying with my lets-keep-moving-on nature; just for the sake I had no option. But I couldn’t deny this wasn’t what I wanted. I felt I was worth much more then it, or I wasn’t? I felt lost.

Now that 2015 has started, I know this year going to the most important year in my life. Big decisions are awaited to be made and need of taking them was urgent. I can’t delay. It’s a new year, a new start and I truly hope I move on and this time I really want to move forward and not remain stuck thinking if things would have been the way I wished. Not feel frustrated, confused or lost anymore.

“Make your present good, so that in future when your present becomes your past, you feel good about it”

With this new ray of hope, I wish all of you A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Keep rocking and smiling 😀

Regards,

Isha 🙂