Thank you

End of any story doesn’t mean the story doesn’t continue. The characters and their stories have no ends. They just get to become the last word on the last page of a book or last scene of a movie. The narrator just stops narrating. Might be the story further isn’t that meaningful, I suppose.

Same has happened to me when my words and I had divorced each other. We together had a great journey and beautiful story of ours. It was among the best moments of my life.

I am not here back again to recall past or to begin a new story of us. I am here because whatever however it ended, yet it was special. Words don’t connect with me now but for once they felt great to be mine.

And if it wasn’t you dear, I wouldn’t have landed up here to create this platform with my words. I wouldn’t had have this story, or given shape to my expression into something called meaningful words.

You know right I am talking about you. Back in time, Rupinder my friend you were the one to push me for starting my own blog after so many failed attempts of mine. I remember how happy I was to blog my first post.

Well, it’s your birthday tomorrow and this year I wanted to give you a piece of surprise and now don’t be surprised that I remember the date. You know the reason- Now being your tiny financial advisor I can at least remember this much. Haha!

After so much of thinking what to really gift you, I thought few expressive words could be the best to send my wishes and make your day nicer. I do know, you like simple things and nothing else could have been great as this gift for you.

I stopped blogging, but I owe you for this place. Or might be we (my words too) both owe you.

Although I am the one talkative still all these years you have been the one to express more. I am not so great at words like you. But here’s a try.

I really don’t know what much to say but yes big thanks for being the friend you are, always.

I realise have not been so good with you, many times. Been rude, secretive, ignorant, hiding things, selfish, dishonest, careless and so much else. But surprisingly you still amaze me by still considering me worth a friend.

I admit I am bad or I should say I don’t like showing the good side.  Honestly, I can go against any bad for the people in my life. But I don’t easily let everyone to hold on me to be there for me probably because that takes a lot of strength to allow someone to take care of you. I am weak when it comes to emotional bonding. And also, I know it’s painful to be that helping or protecting guard. I can’t just go on and be that pain to everyone. It‘s hard to break that wall simply. Probably I can’t help being like that.

I assume my loved ones will understand my not-said-words. Because words they play funny. They can clear misunderstandings but they can even create big ones. And I am certainly bad when it comes to words.

You are one among those with whom I have not been the best. But yes just know when I say I count you on for forever, I mean it. I don’t believe in namesake friendship. I believe in being a friend even if I am pretend to be a mean person. It’s silly but that’s me.

More of it, it takes a lot to express all this now but today it is your day and it has to be perfect. I don’t want to spoil it.

Thanks for bearing me and of course for remembering every details. Yes I don’t remember dates. But I do remember our bond of friendship and how it has grown up with passing years as we moved on to different stages from your college life to home to workplace.

Yeah I am much more stupid than you think I am. So with this stupid note of mine, just want to say- you are much stronger than you think.

A very Happiest Birthday!

 

Blogging

I took a decision, a little to surprise you all and a lot more to surprise myself. It feels somewhat weird to tell but I am writing this as my last blog post.

As I am telling this, I can’t help recalling my first one and followed up many. That even reminds me of my friend comparing his numbers with mine. And every time he said that, Sorry but I laughed at your cute reaction. Honestly numbers don’t count. They never did. And I am big fan of your writing, you sure know that.

Well, I am certainly not here for a big farewell boring bid-bye post. But yes I would like to thanks for making me smile and encouraging me every time by giving those reviews and suggestions. I am even glad to have found some really sweet readers on my blog, one of them turned out to be pretty nice friend too. This guy is himself a blogger. (You can check his great blog -> https://mymindsjournal.com/ )

And not to forget; each one of you who has been reading my posts, taking out your little time, it truly meant a lot.

I began this journey with no hope really and probably I am leaving the journey mid way with really no hope of coming back. But I’d like to clear that my decision is not out of depression struck situation. Life has been pretty awesome to me always. Yes I have problems like everyone else. But my bonding with my problems are little weird and kind a silly. I guess mine loves me so much that it never leaves me but also makes sure to never hate me. It simply is my all time go-along-forever kind companion. We both can’t live without each other.

I personally believe blogging is about expressing yourself by your words. You convey your thoughts, your ideas, your imagination and anything or maybe everything through words.  It’s like your words is forming your own identity. They describe you in their own way. Writing helps you connect with others and more of it with your own self. And blogging is one of the best experiences I ever had. It gave me a platform where I can speak and be heard and grow.

I am leaving because for me it’s no more about words. Sadly I realise my words don’t connect anymore. Or rather I should say the more I try to express, the more of it creates distance. Before it further creates a different identity of mine, I want to accept that silence is what I need.

“Yours words should be your best friend but not a forced burdened relationship.”

I and my words don’t share the same bonding now. It has become like a complicated marriage and probably would take a long time to recreate those old beautiful ‘us’ feeling. Might be I am playing the selfish one by taking this decision of being apart. Hopelessly, I had no other choice.

So not much more left to say I just want to end this by saying few words unsaid…

(Small pause for those who shall miss me :P)

Whatever and however I have been, I am glad I was there. I am glad you welcomed me and it happened. Probably you’ll not remember me as a blogger. But I will never forget my readers and their love. My existence was from you all. Today if I am leaving, it’s because something shouldn’t stay once it has lost its real meaning.

But yeah, you all amazing bloggers out there- Keep blogging and rocking. I am still there as your active reader. Even I am waiting for two of my sweethearts to start their blogs soon. I can’t wait to read yours too. And my dear cute friend you get a chance to increase your numbers now. LOL!

🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

 

It’s your day

“Only I can wish you first!” I had exclaimed as I pulled her buzzing phone, ignoring her friend’s call. I loved holding that right on you, Didi.

In the past 24 years of our togetherness it was all about just you and me. Today on your 30th birthday, we aren’t together for the first time. I just could not be there. But I know there are others who shall shower so much love and blessings on you and make your day simply wonderful.

I admit if I had ever been so possessive about anyone, it was always you. My life was all about you and someone like me could not have deserve much. I found the best in you. Thank you for being what you were and are to me.

Now you are in your new journey of life, where you have found a lovable husband and a caring family. Surely, I am the happiest to acknowledge that your life is not anymore revolving just around me but it’s much more about you.

“Near, far wherever you are I believe that the heart does go on….”

That’s a line from the song you loved hearing whenever I sang. Our bond is as special as this song.

And special things in life are not bind by anything.

So, No more keeping phone on hold or snatching them. Yes, it doesn’t matter anymore that I wish you first or last. I just want to be one of that reasons among many to bring precious smile on your lips.

This Birthday pamper yourself with many sweets, chocolates, surprise gifts and a lot much because soon you’ll have to do the pampering. Certainly, no gift can match that sweet lil’ bundle of joy. And I can’t thank you enough for bringing in my life such a beautiful one, just like you, who shall be my adorable love.

I might have told you almost every time but still I want to let you know once again, I love you. I love you much more than anyone else. No distance, no reason, or any other relation can make any difference. You will always remain the best sister. Happiest Birthday Didi!

Yours forever,

Ishu ❤