Everywhere I go or rather sign up in any social networking site there is a question which confuse me like anything and that’s – Describe yourself. I find it very tough to say something about myself. Today when I was simply going through all my profiles I have made till date, this thing stroke my mind again and again. Finally I decided that yes, lets better give a try. One shouldn’t run away from any sort of challenge. I said to myself come’ n dear just bluff out like always you do. But I realized for me it’s no less than a hard phase.
Frankly I doubt that I know how I am or who am I or like why was I born? Maybe I am big confused girl on this whole earth who doesn’t know even the reason to her existence. Same is me and my life, a big confusion!
Anyways meet me Isha, a girl who is most pampered by her loved ones that includes my friends & family- My parents & elder sister. I am lovable to all, not the favourite. I am sweet but I am equally furious. I love to be cute n kiddo yet hot n sexy. I am very childish and another moment I react as the most mature girl ever. I am ambitious but yet I don’t know my real ambition. I admire simplicity yet try to be modest & fashionable. I am strong for others but weak for my near ones. I love being the way I am even though I try to enact others a lot. I guess my innersole is different from my outer appearance. I am cheerful still I suffer depression. I like fun and at the same time I am a serious girl. I do whatever I like. I am not a kind who is found in a fixed mood. Yes, one can say I usually get mood swings for I am never the same. Sometimes I fight or simply forgive. I am not short tempered but when I lose my temper than I’m very bad at controlling it. To accept challenge and struggle in life is my passion yet I prefer living simple life and fear things. I do not demand or have any expectations still I feel bad when they are not fulfilled. Most of the time I chit chat and listen aloud music although I love silence. I believe in true love but never had fallen in “love” for someone. I am practical however I live in my own imaginative life & dream world. To sleep is my favourite time pass however I never get one nicely. I am usually found busy on the contrary I have got no work. People find me good to be with in spite of that I am alone. I love being the way I am even though I try to enact others a lot. I guess my innersole is different from my outer appearance.
Apart from this If talk about my hobby I say its dancing, singing, travelling, reading love stories, chatting, writing like anything but none of these is what I do, rather just lay down like a nerd on my bed holding my course book. Maybe I am good at studies but not a scorer or in other words I am good as a teacher but poor as a student. I get remarkable comments for my disciplined nature and even uncountable complaints for being bad in cleanliness. I am irresponsible yet I carry and perform many of them. I am foodie but hates cooking. I am smart though possess low ranks as in personality. Sports, arts, science, etc I admire talent but good at nothing. To tell of my favourites is another mystery for it totally depends on my mood. I love nature but too lazy to explore it most of the times. I hate history and ancient stuffs though I got passion to research on them. I am fond of photography but avoid to get photographed. I adore chirpy babies but bad at handling them. I hate it when people consider me as their friend, bloody if I’m being good to you doesn’t mean we are supposed to be friends. Crazy! I can’t even hurt them by saying the truth. Another thing I hate is when someone so close to me, misunderstands me and then instead of clearing it stops talking to me. Never mind next I do is keep pleading to begin the talk. Further I hate bad smell still I manage to resist to survive in it, if required.
Precisely I love everything but I even hate many things lol. Funny isn’t it? But that’s me.
From the very beginning till now the word “I” has ate up my mind. To be honest I hate to use it and that’s a big reason I avoid this topic for I know that this “I” would force me at its extreme level. Silly! Even my name starts from the alphabet “I”. Being a Leo (sun sign) I am known to be a proudy and egoistic girl nevertheless I won’t wish to be of such kind.
Its true nobody can explain themselves at its best in any words from whole of the dictionary because a person withstand a very profound and inquisitives qualities. Yes, everyone knows them the best. No-one else can know you more than you yourself. But for me my god-the almighty knows me the most even more than I could ever understand myself.
Last but not least I am satisfied yet needs to improve. I cry for a confused state of my mind yet I live & love happily.