Let’s say it- Bye not an end!

27 May

You must be surprised to find a piece of poem, I have shared below. I too didn’t know I’ll end up sharing this though I could have like posted anything as there are many pending ones.  I am usually not fond of writing poems for I am not so creative at them. Yet sometimes I happen to and it’s when they come out straight away from my heart. Isn’t it true that a poem signifies your in deep feelings? Likely in the same manner it plays with me, every time I pen them down. Wish you could read my true inner thoughts through it.

 Let’s say it- Bye not an end!

Time to bid each other bye is arriving,

For soon you are going to leave;

I am unknown of my surviving,

As you complete me is what I believe.

  

If I happen to cry along you,

Do not stop my eyes from tears;

Let them flow down now,

Might be later they won’t find a shed.

 

I can never forget & so as you,

The trust on relation is our assurance;

You will remain forever in my heart,

A promise we made together in great diligence.

  

Wish I could hold on this moment,

Wish I could steal away you from all,

Wish I could never let us apart,

Buts it’s all just a wish;

As reality is wishes stays only wished.

 

   Lil expression of love is I am left with;

Your acceptance to it is I honour in faith.

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The Journey continues…

24 May

Hope you excuse me for making delay in updating this continuation after my previous post of Srilanka. (If you haven’t read it, make sure you click on the word ‘previous’ and read it.)

I banged on with someone who just passed by me. “Sorry” I squeaked. I don’t know if the man had listened or not as he was in a hurry.

“What if I get lost?” “What if I landed up somewhere else?” “What if some stranger started to follow me up noticing I am all alone?” “What if I couldn’t handle all the formalities & miss my flight?”

A bunch of questions ran through my mind in every microsecond. I turned to look back but couldn’t find any similar faces outside. Taking a deep breath I pushed my baggage trolley to move further. Mom had told me to go to a said gate number for submitting my baggage and collecting the boarding pass. I walked till the end and found the gate. To my horror the attendant standing over there refused to collect my baggage saying it’s for passengers of other country and not the one I was travelling to. I hadn’t mistaken to hear the gate number my mom had told me. I asked her another time just to make sure she heard it correct. “No!” she said furiously in rejection. I felt so confused at the very first step and realised I wouldn’t be able to carry the journey alone.

“Take it easy dear might be the gate number has been changed” I consoled myself. I asked many people but nobody bothered to help me and everyone was busy with their own stuffs. Walking unknown of my way with that loaded trolley I wished my parents was with me.

“Hey! Mom had even told me about the information centre” I thanked her for forcing me to listen carefully to her instructions and just then I felt relaxed to see my answer right behind me. Few people gave me a weird look for I had happened to smile looking at them, though the smile surely wasn’t for them. I didn’t care to tell they are not the reason to it.  I quickly rushed up to enquire to the guy sitting to help everyone. He seemed to me not less than any rescuer in a war LOL!

I was dumbstruck to find it was the same gate on which I had went before. “But then why the lady refused for it on being asked?” I asked this more to myself rather than that boy. Anyone in this world can go wrong but when it comes to giving up proper instructions my mom never fails, I should have known this. He felt it strange to find me thoughtfully looking somewhere.

“Sorry ma’am! Just ignore her and move to the counter” He interrupted my thoughts. Thanking him & gaining a bit confidence I went back. As I reached there again my eyes automatically scanned to find that good-for-nothing-lady. I wanted to tell her that she should be fired from her job. Never mind I was letting go every crap thing which was annoying me, from that weird looking passengers to that furious attendant. I was more concerned to take my own responsibility, which was not less than any challenge for me. For my satisfaction I confirmed from the two checking officer standing near the gate. I sighed as they nodded in acceptance. I went to the counter of my flight and waited in the queue for my turn.

It was taking long as there were so many travellers. I was scanning the people around me just when my phone vibrated. I quickly took received the call not waiting to read the name, knowing it would be mom’s call. I smiled in relief after hearing her voice. It seemed like a boost up doze to me when she once again instructed me in her sweet words. She too was glad to know I managed to find the right track. “You are my bold daughter, I know this.”  I was thoughtful how come people have faith on me more than I ever did. At last! It was my turn, I asked mom to hang up.

“I have to submit our baggage over here?” The lady responded in yes. “I shall also get my boarding pass from here itself?” She again nodded in yes. I was not yet getting assurance and I again questioned to reconfirm. “Yes ma’am, don’t worry. First show me your documents.” The answer came in very sweet tone.

I unloaded my baggage and emptied the trolley until she was making data entry. I sighed once it was done. “It’s heavy right?” I smiled back. She handed over the boarding pass as she finished up pasting those names slips on my belongings. “Ma’am this is your seat number and these are your other necessary details.” She pointed at something and went on explaining me every required thing to be followed further. No wonder she was friendly and I felt relaxed. I thanked her as I moved according to her indication to the immigration centre.

Here I go one step further-Immigration centre. I took the form to be filled and stood at a side reading it carefully. Once it was done I moved straight in the direction to the counter. Luckily there weren’t so rush. But all of my confidence went down when I noticed someone with weird looks was trying to chase me from so long. I went bewildered to find him coming near me and to stand behind me. I gasped to inform the officer, who started enquiring about from him. He was not a traveller. The guards pushed him outside as he had came fooling those at security. It was surely unexpected and scary. The formalities were quickly completed and I was sent for the final security check.

I was carrying a bottle of my favourite litchi juice along with me and they said it was not allowed inside. So, I had to leave it there itself and bid it bye. Apart from that my lil teddy too was in my handy bag. I made puppy face expressions as if expressing my willingness to take him along. They didn’t object. I was happy and sheepishly smiled. Finally I reached to most amazing place at the whole airport, the exclusive shopping area.

I wasn’t in mood to buy anything so settled myself at the sitting area. This was the time I was waiting for long-phone calls. First I dialled to my parents and assured them of my well being. The next was very obvious my friend. Actually I should say friends. Two calls were already made and before I could dial to the third person announcement of my flight interrupted my call. It was already received and so I decided to continue as I walked up till I reach to the flight. There were lots of disturbances, maybe because of low network. Even though I didn’t wished to yet I had to cut the call half way.

I was making my way inside absent minded. I boarded my flight and saw the device was still showing a bit of network. I started to type a message but was asked to be seated and keep my belongings above at the luggage area. I hurriedly found my seat and placed my things at the proper place. I was in half sitting condition, when I saw a call from dad. I was happy to receive it. I told him there was no one sitting along me, so he needn’t worry much about me. Even I was more comfortable with the same thought. He ended up after enquiring about few things and wishing me happy journey.

As I ended up with it, automatically my fingers started to type text. I didn’t want to miss any single chance to talk to my friends. Sadly only few replies came as most of them were busy. Still I was trying to cherish my every moment until the flight take off. While I was busy reading and texting, the interferer (air hostess) came to warn me for switching off my mobile. She had told me as I had entered but I never bothered to follow the rules and another time I disobeyed her by continuing doing that.

The pilot made the final call for the take off time and I was bind to stop texting any more. The flight took off and I was parted from my country, my people by growing miles.

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Bloody back I am!

18 May

It’s Bloody! Not that I’m red in blood but because I’ve somehow managed to come out of my shitty condition. There’s a bundle of thoughts running in my mind and annoying things happening around.

You might be willing to ask “what’s up with my health?” as I mentioned about my operation in the last post. Yes, it was done. I was supposed to be fine but the not so recovering body of mine had lost hope. Every another day it creates upsetting drama for me by bringing up more health issues. It neither agreed to die nor to live independently. But I can’t be a mere piece of burden to my family, who are mad to care so much for me. At this moment when my dear ones need me I can’t stay helpless and immobile watch them going through sufferings.

I really don’t know what life has fixed on for me. A stuck career, hopeless skeleton (it’s surely not a body for they survive, its bones with few layer of skin on it), many guilt. For time being I am letting it go and stick to my decision of ignoring pains and problems. They never go according to us yet we can move on just by choosing to remain occupied so as to avoid them letting affect us. It’s going to be tough but then even I am not an easy girl.

Further I want to confess something which I’ve lately realised during these days.

This is to those people who once played a part in my life and still do though a nonexistent role.

I apologise for keeping apart from a very long period of time. I won’t say there were reasons like ones given above. Yes, they existed and not allowed me to keep cribbing about my problems all the time. But I consider them excuses and way to escape away. I know I became too selfish to live according to my preference, not bothering whatever I meant to you. It’s not that I am not aware of how much I value in your life, you equally do to me. It’s about not wanting to be valued by so many. I’d rather prefer to be alone and being with the ones who truly reside in me, who are need to my survival. Frankly if you wish to blame someone for this, then complain to the destiny and fate factor. If it wasn’t so cruel I would have remain there by your side like always bringing up that million dollar smile on your face and sorting out all your obstacles.  Not everyone is meant for everyone. Let’s better face the reality and accept the fact that each one of us has to live our own life. However it may be for each one of us yet we can’t ask somebody else to perform your role in this world. And like anyone even I would be answerable for my life, which was said responsible to me.

I ought to outlive for those bright and aspiring eyes, which completes my world. If it leads to sacrificing own self completely, I bear to do that.

 

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Sunshine Award

4 May

I should be indeed happy for attaining this award but frankly I am not. Reason being I don’t consider myself deserving for this one. Especially at this moment I really don’t feel I’m a sunshine blogger. I am suppose to be a very cheerful and active blog writer but here forget about being that, instead I haven’t updated anything since long and not even aware of when I’ll post my next one. I am dying to do that but my problems not allowing me.

People say when you share your problem; they seem to be lighter to you as you say your heart out but for time being it’s totally contrary in my case. I’m feeling worse to tell my loved ones and now my readers that I am sick. Not just casual one but I’m holding so many infections in my body which have made me extremely weak and sooner I’ll have to undergo an operation. Yes! It’s painful knowing that I fear those syringes and doctors’ treatment. However, it’s more dreadful to realise today everyone who is a part of my life, is worried, and the reason is me-just me. I am aware of the consequences further that how it shall affect my future life, health, career and most of all my relations. Yet I am absolutely helpless. I don’t mind this pain and troubles, I really don’t. I have no complaints from my fate or destiny as I know I was at fault. I completely denied my health and so I should suffer. But yes, I am feeling bad that I can’t be the one I wished to be ever… I never knew I would become the reason of sorrows for others.

I had always been that so called strong girl. For now I am weak, although I do not like to let anyone know that but I can’t bear you all to think I have forgotten you. It’s impossible to do that, during all my good and bad times you all had been my strength. Even at this time my rays of hope is from your presence in my life. I own a precious treasure and surely can’t afford to lose. Just forgive me for whatever I had hurt you not by sympathy but for your Isha, who still is same, to be loved and love you forever. Miss you all. Please mark my advice for taking very good care of yours. Drink minimum 5 glasses a day and have proper diet at proper time.

Anyway Turber (www.looserornot.wordpress.com), thanks dear for giving me the award (Sorry for 4 days late reply) and congrats to you too. As per the rule I’ve to answer some questions about me. So here it goes…

What is your favourite colour? - My eyes are not blue, but the sky is blue. It’s obvious my favourite is none other than dark blue. Lol! I know it didn’t go with the rhythm.

What is your favourite animal? - I admire all cute animals but I find rabbits and dolphins the most adorable.

Which is your favourite number? – As such not any fixed but I generally prefer my birth date number, which is number 5(five).

 Which is your Favourite non-alcoholic drink? – It’s no doubted Coke! AAA… My mom will kill me if she reads this one.

Do you prefer facebook or twitter? - Honestly, not against those twitter fans, I don’t like twitter. It’s kind of quite not-user-friendly and above of that it don’t have many super cool features as you get in facebook.

What is your passion? -  Music. Music. Music! It absorbs me in itself like entirely, from tip to toe.

What is your favourite pattern? - Erm… waking up-talking- freshening up-talking-eating-talking-doing stuffs-talking-eating-talking-going to bed-talking-sleeping. I guess that’s common for all. Isn’t it?

Which is your favourite day of the week? – Now everyday goes like same but before I used to love Sundays for it was a HOLIDAY! ;)

Which is your favourite flower? - I love all types of flowers. They are just so pretty and wonderful that I can’t stop eyeing at them. Sadly they never grew up in the plants kept at my home.

Further I’d like to nominate not many but few of the most deserving blogger I’ve known i.e.

Cribbings (www.cribbings.wordpress.com)

pat cegan (www.patcegan.wordpress.com)

varun (www.varungenius.wordpress.com)

anish (www.ibelievethat.in)

Seriously you guys are amazing. Keep rocking and smiling.

Last but not least I am grateful to my friend who helped to convey you this post of mine.

Regards,

Isha

My 1st award

21 Apr

I was completely shocked to find someone nominating me for this award.

Actually it’s not someone but my friend and one of among very good bloggers Varungenius. Thanks buddy for making this my first award for my blog and I’m glad it’s from you, whose words are worth appreciation. You are truly an amazing writer :)

Versatile blogger award, I really don’t know if my blog posts really have that versatility factor, but yes I had always tried my best to provide you all a variety and mould up my feelings in words to the best possible manner. I am so overwhelmed dear, thanks a lot for considering me deserving this one.

As per the rule I need to nominate other bloggers and inform them thereon. But I really don’t read much yet I’ve managed to do a bit of reading for few of my favourite ones.

So here nominating the ones I find really deserve for this award.

1) Varungenius- Varun I know you’ve already got this one but it would by my pleasure to give you this by me.

2) Cribbings- Gabriela dear I had always find your posts so unique and profound.

3) GG- I found this blog been talking about so many different topics, in a very exquisite way.

4) Ankursays- Ankur you agree or not but you had been my most favorite blogger in every way.

Anyway hope you excuse me for posting in a rush as I am not able to post much these days. Keep rocking and smiling forever!

Regards,

Isha

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